Hey Liquidation,
I haven't read all the pages on this thread but you don't need to dumb yourself down to fit in.
There are probably girls out there who go to shallow parties with shallow friends who are just dying to meet a different individualistic guy. Maybe
you're feeling anguished because you have all these urges to find a girl when really just be patient.
A generation ago it was quite normal to be 17 and have no girlfriend/boyfriend. This desperation about sex and relationships is a modern invention of
Hollywood.
This depression and anger is not healthy. I have no plans of suicide, just I am wondering if these feelings are felt by many or a select few..

Sure it's healthy. They call it growing pain. You wont break out and find your true self until you become angry and dissatisfied with your present
life. Welcome the anger and use it to change things.